Decisions.
So I am lucky. Blessed. Whatever you want to call it. & I think I have expressed that on this blog.
I love my life.
About 7 months ago, I started working really, really, REALLY hard to get a job that I was sure was perfect for me. It was in the industry I was sure I wanted to work in, it would push me, it would challenge me, I would learn new things and be forced to innovate. I got the job & I was elated. I was so tired of freelancing. I loved the flexibility, loved the freedom of freelancing, but I couldn’t stand the instability anymore and longed for a job that forced me to sit at a desk 50 hours a week in exchange for a paycheck. I got that stability [but not much more] in this job.
And it’s a good job. The paycheck comes twice a month and I feel relatively secure and I believe wholeheartedly in the mission of the organization. I know I have more than what a lot of people may even ask for & I had no plans to ask for even more.
Then another opportunity came knocking. It’s a much different one, in a completely different direction, that I had kind of let myself forget about up until now. It’s one that incorporates all of my skills, adds in all of my desires to learn, gives me the opportunity for a real challenge. It’s one I would have jumped on in a heartbeat 7 months ago, but it’s come now & I have to decide whether to stay or go.
Such a horrible position to be in, right?
I’m very aware that opportunities like this don’t come around often. I’m very aware that this may be the only time in my life that I am being actively pursued by one job opportunity as I remain securely attached to another. And again, for this, I feel so very lucky. I’d like to attribute some of it to consistently demonstrated hard work on my part - but mostly? I think I’m lucky.
And they’re both good. In my head, one is better than the other & I think I’ve basically made up my mind, but I’m still sad to let the other one go. Again, what a horrible proposition to be faced with in choosing between two good things. You definitely shouldn’t feel any sympathy for me.
But it’s still a decision that I have to make - and one that feels very grown up, in that the choice I make will affect my life profoundly for [hopefully] years & years.
I just want to make the best one.
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subtlenights said:
Congratulations Girl!
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colormenaive said:
do risky/fun things while you’re young…I think you’re probably already leaning in that direction! go get it!
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